Currently Listening Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie By Alanis Morissette That I Would Be Good see related

Since this is rarely read, and that its basically a journal anyway...eh whatever I'm rationalizing because I want to talk openly and I don't often allow myself that freedom.. Anyway, I'm really stressed out. No one big thing needs fixing, I'm just tired. It feels like people are becoming so much more needy and teachers think that you have nothing else going on in your life except their class so they think they can keep you busy until you come back into their class... I haven't gotten my student loans that I was supposed to get a month ago, and so many people try to cash in when you absolutly need them not to.. And I feel like I have to be a responsible adult all the time, partly because a certian man in my life is not and then partly because I have such an incredibly worry prone nature. I wish I could have time to BE the things I used to like about myself, like happy, relaxed, spontanious.. fun...anything other than constantly in a hurry and never measuring up..some people do try to help, but he gives me what he would give himself, not what I want him to give.. but its not his fault. And I wish I had friends that my friendship with them was not contingeniout on me giving them what they want.. Like people that just like to be around, share connection, that sort of thing.. I feel like I'm useless to people unless they want some thing from me. Be mostly I just want to complain I guess.. to talk about how I feel, it helps somehow..I guess even when no one is listening. My life really is good, I just need to release my frustrations sometimes, I need to have time when I'm not constantly worring about everything...